Yes I Really Did That

Yes I really did that stupid thing.  Yes I did actually think it through.  Yes I truly believed it was a good idea.  Yes I am an idiot.

The problem is that at 42 I can no longer use that excuse.  I made those choices and whether I am an idiot or not I now have to live with the consequences. I hurt people I love.  Lots of them.  I even manage to destroy a relationship that survived 27 years, drugs, alcohol, affairs, a miscarriage, and all of my varied insanity.  Yes I managed to destroy that.

Yes I really did that.  Now I wish I could take it back.  Doesn't work that way.  Now what happens is I get to live with that.

Rose